one day at a time

day 130: coffee envy

coffee envy © Verena Fischer 2011

coffee envy © Verena Fischer 2011

In the morning Ezequiel has an espresso with a little milk. Maybe I mentioned it before, I don’t know, but I love coffee. Sadly I can’t drink it anymore since my body seems to reject everything that strong. I haven’t had coffee in 3 years, but still, every morning I feel like I really need one. Over the years I have reduced my caffeine intake to 0. When my health problems started I was trying to get off coffee, but always failed. I read somewhere that it takes only 3 days to get over caffeine addiction, but it took me two months to actually manage to not have a coffee for 3 days. After that I reduced it more. First I drank coffee, then black tea, then green tea and now I’m off caffeine. And I tell you, it sucks!

I have many fond memories of coffee. When I bought my coffee machine – a blue senseo coffee maker – it came with 3 different types of coffee to try. Of course I had to try them all. Extensively. So I had 6 cups of coffee. What I didn’t know was that one pad machine coffee has about double the caffeine of a normal filter coffee. So, over the course of the day starting in the afternoon I had the equivalent of 12 cups of coffee. I was buzzing! At 1am I called a friend and asked him whether he wanted to come over to have pancakes and drink coffee. And that’s what we did the rest of the night.

I also regularly drank a Red Bull copy called Booster. Once when we – that is me and some friends of mine – were driving to a party, one of my friends sat behind me in the car. He couldn’t see what I was doing and I opened a bottle of Booster. It has quite a strong smell, much stronger than Red Bull, so my friend on the back seat said “Verena, it smells of Booster, did you cut yourself?”

I miss those times. And I miss coffee. And every morning Ezequiel has his espresso with a little milk. And every morning I want to steal it from him! I guess, once an addict, always an addict …

11 responses

  1. I remember I once had coffee sweeties. They really taste like coffee. Maybe they are available in Berlin? And mostly the smell of coffee is better than the drink. I write this to make you feel better.

    December 21, 2011 at 12:07 pm

    • Thanks for writing, it’s appreciated 🙂 I think I know these coffee sweets, but I don’t really like them. I actually like everything about real coffee. The taste, the smell …! Well, don’t worry about me though, I’m used to not being able to eat and drink certain things. I could also write a blog post about cake ………. hmmm … cake!

      December 21, 2011 at 12:12 pm

  2. I’m still having my cup a day, but am sure I’d feel a lot better without it. But it’s so hard to resist — as you say the wonderful taste and aroma, as well as the ritual 🙂

    December 21, 2011 at 2:25 pm

  3. Years ago I used to drink coffee with the guys at work at break time and at lunch…for 9 years. I stopped after that and now I don’t like to drink it because it makes my heart race. After all that time it still does even if I have one cup a year! Love the taste but it makes me all jittery!

    December 21, 2011 at 3:10 pm

  4. Yes, the ritual of brewing, the aroma wafting in the air, the first sip, hhhhhhhhhh…….. one time while visiting friends I began to have a headache that just wouldn’t go away. After the 3rd day our hostess suggested I try drinking a Pepsi. Within minutes of drinking it my headache went away. Come to find out her household drank caffeine free coffee! 🙂

    December 21, 2011 at 4:25 pm

  5. Sorry to read that you cannot drink coffee anymore 😦
    I’m a coffee addict !
    But only when I work … at least 5-6 cups per day … but no milk in it …
    milk + coffee destroys my stomach !

    December 21, 2011 at 11:24 pm

  6. I love your site, and I read it everyday. I nominated you for the Most Versatile Blogger award today. Keep up the great work.

    December 22, 2011 at 4:40 am

  7. And decaf is just not the same… At least the coffee smells as good as it tastes.

    December 22, 2011 at 7:02 am

  8. With me it’s Cola…
    out of all the foods/beverages it would definitely be the most difficult to give up…

    December 23, 2011 at 1:21 am

  9. I love the coffee aroma but am not a coffee drinker. Your photo has really nice composition, shapes and shadows.

    December 28, 2011 at 4:52 am

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