day 104: past, present and future
This is another shot I took at home, since I was still feeling like I had a cold. These little books are something between notebooks and diaries. I’ve been writing them for years now and there are always times when I don’t use them much, like now, and times when I scribble in them daily. They collect ideas, notes about things I’m working on or just my general musings when I have things to think about. It always helps me to verbalise the mess in my head which I generally don’t do when I’m thinking about things just like that.
These days I’m more and more enjoying the situation I’m in right now. At first it depressed me and I felt useless, since I don’t feel like I have a purpose right now, but the longer I think about it the more I’m starting to see it as a chance too. The other day I talked to my brother on skype and he asked me what it was that I had been wanting to do when I was still too busy. He’s right, I can just use the time I have now to do the things I have been wanting to do for the last few years. I was always so busy that I only focused on the things I had to do rather than to really make space to do the things I used to enjoy when I was still in school. Things like writing, drawing, reading or taking pictures. Maybe it would actually do me some good to just take some time off and do only those things. I think it would actually help me to figure out what I want to do next.